Monday, February 26, 2007

It has been months ever since i last blogged..soon, i will be changing my blog..this will be all my pasts...a new year should have a new start..i do not wish to cling onto the past especially the unhappy things i have encountered in the past few years.. after i have finished with the new blog, i will inform all of u de..:)

On 31st January, i broke up with him, this is my second time of initiating the break up..i really cannot take it anymore, i cannot breathe at all..i felt like a bird being caged up, with no freedom at all..Besides there is no mutual trust between the 2 of us..he dont trust me at all..what he said to me in the few nights are really very very hurting..i really cannot take it..

the day i initiated break up is 2 days after our 3rd month anniversary..i chose this day as i cannot take it anymore n the other reason being, i want to start february happily..in the 3 months that i was with him, only 1 n a half month i was truly very happy de...sad case right?i was thinking, is it a mistake to agree to patch back with him? anyway now even if he wants a patch, i dont think i want it because i have given up on him already, totally given up on this guy who dont even trust me..

Somehow i would feel that am i very useless?when my friends got any problems, i would always be able to give them advices or suggestions..but when it come to myself...it seems that i cannot do anything at all..lol.. well, looks like i must agree that true love are hard to find..?lol..
However, i must really thank the following people for all the care and concern you all have shown towards me when i really don't know what to do..thanks for all the advices and suggestions too..

Special thanks to(not in any sequence): Candice, cheryl aka calrin jie, lynn, liling, lydia, huai sian, jeremy, jay-bernie, ifan, peifang and many many more...thank you very much..though i have no more boyfriend, i am very pleased that i have a bunch of friends like you guys..treasure our friendship very much..:) Guys..all the best in the new year wors.. :)

Some of the advices you guys gave that i agree totally are: Happy jiu hao and follow what my heart tells me to and many more..:)

JeSsY @ 6:52 AM


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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Hmm..todae is a tiring day for me..yesterday went out with my mum, eldest sister and bro..dey accompany to go orchard n buy my prom dress..i was v grateful to my mum hu went out wif us 2 meet my sis right after she returned home from her chanting at the temple..my sis was oso quite tired as she juz finish an exam ysd..den her shoes was so high n pain yet she accompany us to walk for so long..sis..though i dun tink u will be reading..but thank you 4 all ur opinions n for spending some of your time to pei us...=)...in e end..we walk from heeren to metro (paragon) den from dere we move on to OG..finally we found 2 sets of dresses tt suits me e most bt we cant make up our mind as to choose which 1...after making up my decision 2 choose e brown 1 instead of e white 1..we went to the foodcourt n eat our dinner..thanks for the treat, sis...den e 3 of us went back first as sis meeting her friends..bt her leg was so red...so ke lian...

When we reach home, my 2nd sis sae e dress nt v nice, so she ask me to try one of hers..bt it cant fit..den i wear 1 of my eldest sis de which she cant wear le..it fits bt my mum need to alter a bit..my mum last time is a tailor..bt she long time nehs make clothes for ppl le except my grandma..tt's y she cant help me wif it..lolx...so in e end, i m nt wearing the dress tt i bought..so dots lorx..

Todae woke up at 8+am to study for my fnn..den candice col me n chat..gal..dun sad liao ok?anytink juz give me a col..i will also standby 24hours for u..hahax..bt nt now la..coz my fone is still nt back yet..sobx..dun sae i zhong se qing you hoh..i wun de..hahax..remember our date n wednesday ok?i try to c if i can stay over at ur place frm wed to fri..if cant, mayb thurs to fri or wed to thurs..depends bahx..=)...

JeSsY @ 10:35 PM


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Monday, November 13, 2006

Hmm..its been a long time since i last blog le..'O' level has started n it is cuming to an end soon liaoz..yeah..=)..2 more papers 2 go n i can relax le..anyway..me n 'hym' patch back le..@ 1am lyk tt of 29th October 2006...=)...he treat me really v gd..i realii hope tt tis time round..we can b together longer..i wun allow myself 2 make a stupid mistake again le...=)...but tt dae he told me a bad news..upon hearing tt, though i did nt wan 2 cry, my tears still roll down....he will b leaving singapore either at e end of tis year or next year 4 abt 2 months...=(...

Den on our maths paper 2..i was meeting candice n lynn @ 12..but he came to my hse de void deck 2 meet me..den we sit down dere n chat..=)...but he gave me a piece of bad news n tt is it is confirmed tt he is leaving singapore at e end of tis year n will onli b back on next year de February.... =(...den he pei me go 2 e bus-stop...

Haix..den nw my fone is sent for servicing coz tt dae chat wif jeremy till low batt, den after tt cant on or charge le..so sis sent it for servicing for me..before tt my bro de fone oso lyk tt..wonder when i can take it back..i miss my fone v much...kk,,need go n study for my fnn 4 tis fri le..i wanna study hard 4 tis last 2 papers den i can relax without worrying abt e results le??...at least i noe tt i had done my best 4 e past few papers..lyk wad my mum sae, those few papers i didnt realii had much time 2 prepare as in coz it is jammed up together..bt e last 2 papers, i had much longer time, so i muz make use of e time given n do my veri best...yes..i agree...=)..

JeSsY @ 12:18 AM


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Friday, October 27, 2006

bt i tink tt looks r nt important la..is e way tt u r being treated n their character that is important lorx..if u r good-looking bt ur character sucks, wad's e point? lols...if e person is too handsome, most of the time, u will be scared tt he will br snatched away by another gal..den will create a lot of disputes den e ending oso nt wad u wan..=.='''...

haix dunno la..nw still gt tinks 2 fan..my bro turning astray soon?my dad is doing 2 jobs a dae..i scared he cant take it anymore, coz even e doc oso sae he is overworking himself wif onli abt 4hour slp a dae..haix..hu ask my dad de night-shift taxi driver to quit at the last minute..den where 2 fnd a replacement?put e taxi dere without driving is so stupid lorx..lolx..bt he quit le oso sort of a good tink, he has been getting a lot of complaints lorx..nehs follow the meter, my dad sae he once take $240 frm a tourist when e actualt cost is onli $2.40?......where gt such ppl de..bt he quit oso bcoz he wanna avoid loan sharks ah..=.-'''..bt he still owe my dad a lot of $ lorx..sae he dec will return, i agree wif wad my mum sae, when driving my dad de taxi, he oso dun wan return, wad makes u tink tt he will return when he is nt driving le?lolx...

JeSsY @ 9:00 AM


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Thursday, October 26, 2006

Todae eldest sister and brother went to the market to help dad while mum go 2 pks to participate in e shui lu fa hui tink..den tcher cavin came 2 give me tuition..after tt i went to j8 to meet lydia and huai sian 2 study..we wanted to meet at the library de bt dey told me tt it is packed so we meet at the coffee bean..den it started to rain..n e 3 of us were shivering lyk dunno wad..haha..lydia still wearing jacket lorx..bt she is wearing shorts..hahax..after tt we shifted place, we went to mos burger..it is nt tt cold dere..den in between our work, we did stop 4 awhile for a short chat or wad la..

den as usual, dey did ask me abt me n "hym"..actually i m v glad to have so mani frens hu r so concerned abt me n hym bt i tink e onli ans i can sae is wait and time will do the job?hahax...den lydia and hs were lyk laughing la..coz last tym is he wait 4 me n is my turn..tis make me feel tt it is retribution and juz bcoz of a stupid mistake tt i had made last year..realii regret sia.lols..den lydia oso told me abt wad he sae when she msg him wif "he shouldn't let a gal wait 4 him" or smth lyk tt la..den he told lydia tt he dun wan to be bothered abt all tis tinks, he wan 2 concentrate on his studies n other tinks..lolx..n he told lydia tt dere is a gal hu lyk him..i m abit affected?bt i tink it onli shows tt i m making e rite choice coz if gt other gal lyk him means tt he is a gd choice wad..lolx..

Then i think that is wad he mean wad tt dae he msg me wif "mani tinks happened 2 him recently"?i suppose tt is 1 of it tt is bothering him bahx..den tt dae he told me tt he n desmond smoking, i was quite affected bt after a while i m ok le, coz i tink love 1 person shd accept their strength n weaknesses bahx..hahax..dee hs noe he smoke jiu ask me to tell him nt to smoke..hahax..

JeSsY @ 7:59 AM


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Todae is my science practical exam...it is quite easy bt i made quite a few stupid mistakes.hahax..we should b grateful tt we get such an easy paper..hahax...during the paper, we had a 5min blackout.lols..bt we were given 5min extra though..den during the blackout, stupid benedict use the dropper to hold water and shoot my bak n it is wet lorx...wth..tt tym prelim throw water at my leg make my leg wet..so irritating lors..

after e paper, we were locked up in e library from 1130 till 1330..den we did quite some tinks to pass the time..such as chatting..cheryl jie still go suan cand sae i grow taller le, candice hau..lolx..after that we play "true" without "dare"...e players r me. junyi. candice. tingxiang and lynn..each of us played twice..and for my part..both times i m being bombed abt my romance??dey ask questions such as if other guys jio me other than him, will i accept or nt?..if i still like him?..if i'll patch with 'him",candice even ask a v wad qn..n that is if i would ever hope tt he is beside me sometimes e.g. when i m unhappy?..candice oso make fun of me ask whether chopstick can or nt??...(onli me, hs, candice n lynn noe tis secret..haha) =x.. hahax...bt i m sure dey all got e answer that they wan..especially lynn and candice..hahax..if any1 is interested abt e ans can cum n ask me..i will try 2 answer all e questions tt u all hav..haha

Ya..i wun deny that i still have feelings for "him"..n i do regret the decision tt i had made in dec 05..bt initiating a break-up and hurt him..i guess it is retribution tt i hurt myself throughout the process as well..tt's y i posted in my previous post asking all of u..nt to do anytink tt will make u regret..it is really nt a good feeling..Though we had broken up, he still treat me v well, care for me and lend me his ears to hear me tok abt my troubles..juz bcoz i said i dun lyk smokers b4, he is willing to quit it 4 me..it is nt an easy job yet he is willing to do it for me, it juz make me feel quite touched...though we were onli together 4 a short period of time bt i realli enjoy it..i hav told "him" that if he ask me 4 patch, most likely i will agree to it..if we realli patch back, tis time round, i wun let myself make e wrong decision again..if we can patch back, i will treasure it even more..

After school, candice and i proceed to orchard coz i wan her 2 pei me 2 look 4 a prom dress at daniel yam..after much trying i found a suitable 1 and the cost is $93.45 bt tink i still need 2 alter abit at e cost of $25?dunno lei.after o level den go n c again wif my mum n sis..den i bought a pair of new heels frm URS and a top from myphosis...whoa...candice oso bought a white bag from perlini..hahax...

JeSsY @ 6:54 AM


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Todae something happen to me again..my illness acted up again?when i m young, i cant stand under the sun or in crowded places 4 too long, i will suddenly feel lyk vomitting..bt i long time nehs go chanting wif my mum le so it didn't act up till todae?But todae it worsen...

When chanting wif my mum in pks todae, near e end tt tym, stomach seems 2 hav a lot of wind which cause me 2 b nauseous, after tt my vision start to blur, so my mum ask me to squart down n take a rest..after a while, it got better, luckily or i may hav to go to the hospital..juz joking..=)..After lunch, i pei my mum wait till 2pm 4 another event bt i nehs oin coz e weather v hot den i nt feeling well ma..

While waiting, my mum also told me that she suffer from this since young as well, so i guess this is an inherited illness?? She sae my yiyi (my mum de youngest sister) also lyk that..She sae it is low blood pressure??lols...so she asked me to bring water and sweets everywhere i go..dotx...bt we dunno if my second sister also lyk tt coz she oso quite weak, mayb even weaker than me..opps...lolx..

JeSsY @ 5:21 AM


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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Today is a very memorable day for most of us as we end the days in Ang Mo Kio Secondary School…It includes 5 classes from the express, 1 sec 4 normal technical class and 2 sec 5 normal academic classes..I have been in AMKSS for 5 years already. Time really flies. Everything seems to happen only yesterday. I just got into AMKSS secondary 1 life. Hahax. In the morning, we had our p.e. lessons as per normal and the few of us (Candice, jun yi , ting xiang, xiao hong and me) went to the gym because we don’t want to stay under the sun and we want to do some workout. Lolx.

JeSsY @ 8:07 AM


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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Dotx...here i am blogging again...I cant get to sleep anyway..hahax..so blog first because I think after today, I might not be blogging again for quite a while because I wanna concentrate on my studies and might not come online or use the computer that often le except when I want to do my work lahx...lolx...After all this years in AMKSS, I think other than I had change in my looks, appearance and so on..I think I have become more mature in my thinking and I am able to put myself in other people's shoes to think and look at things at different perspective lers...hahax...
That is quite a big achievement for me after all..hehex...

For the past few years..I have realii learnt alot...lyk "life is unpredictable" and thus, we must treasure everytink that we have because we may lose them any time..so we must live each day just like today will be our last day in this world...For the past 17 years, I guess I have made many mistakes and had many regrets but I will try my best to turn all this regrets that I have into better things and I shall make sure that I treasure everythings that I have, every friends and sisters (be it jiemeis or my 2 biological sisters), my family and my loved ones..I will make sure that I live each day without any regret..so that if I just leave like that tomorrow..I have no more worries or regret that I never treasure this or that and so on..I hope those who view my blog will understand what I sae and do e same tink as well coz we really don't know what is going to happen in the next day, next minute or even next second..we also don't know if we can live to our next birthday..

For people out there, no matter whether you are single or in a relationship currently, do treasure all the friends and family, your love ones and all the times that you spent with them fully and happily.NEVER EVER LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH REGRETS!!life is very precious de..there are many people in this world who are not as healthy as us, who are suffering so since we can walk, jump and live healthily, I think we should live it to the fullest..=)..I think people who are living in Singapore are very fortunate because we do not have to suffer from any natural disasters and we have food to eat and so on, unlike countries like Africa where they are less developed and most of them do not even have food to eat...so i now, hope that all the sentient beings can be liberated from their sufferings..=)

I have missed alot of things and I am not going to let myself make the same mistake ever again..I don't want my life to be filled with regrets ever again...For now, I will concentrate on my studies, I want to SCORE well and don't disappoint the hopes that my family have for me..and also the tuition teachers, school teachers that have taught me for the past few years..I want to prove to myself that I can do it if I want to...Though i would have some disputes with my family, I am veri glad to have them as my family and I enjoy all the times that I have with them so I will try my veri best and do well in my o levels and not to disappoint them like what I had done in my prelims this year..I hope all my best jiemeis and friends will graduate from secondary school together with me with results that we want!

~EVERYONE...JIAYOUS~
Most treasured: Lynn jie, Candice, Cheryl jie aka Calrin jie, Lydia, Huaisian, Tingxiang, Junyi, Weishen, Elias, Darren, Liling, May, Yanming, Jeremy, Siling, Jenny, Nisa, Shuli, Yiqi, Victoria, Peiling...
Treasured:All the other friends I have in AMKSS(especially 5B), GYPS and others...(sorri that I never indicate all e friends coz realli gt alot)

JeSsY @ 8:25 AM


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It's been a long time since I last blogged ler..the last time i blog was using tcher Cavin de laptop and today i was blogging with my new computer for the very first time sia..lolx...
haix tomorrow is a big day for most of us..it is our farewell assembly..after this farewell assembly, we won't be seeing our teachers, schoolmates and classmates except for the days where we have extra lessons or when we sit for our 'O' level examinations.. This 5 years in AMKSS has been a great time for me..I have learnt alot from people around me...These 3 years in class 5B is veri enjoyable..We shared all the scoldings and fun together..I gonna miss all the joy in this class and all the friends I have in this class as well... I guess, tomorrow will be a great day but perhaps we may cry but I hope that even so, it is a form of joy and blessing one another?I also hope that on the release of our 'O' level results,the tears that we had are due to joy and not regret!!!!!

The teachers who had taught us during this 3 years have taught me alot of things as well..not just studies but they also shared their life experiences together with us..I wouldn't have come so far without them..their naggings, scoldings and their encouragement had allowed me to think more before I decide about doing something and allowed me to improve on my studies and so on...i really appreciate all this that our teachers had done for us..I also know that out principal, vice-principal and many teachers had high hopes on us for this year de 'O' level examination...it may be abit pressuring for us but I am sure our class 5B..will do our very best just like the school motto "strive for the best" and our class vision "Victory belongs to the most pesevering"...Come on! 5B...let's work hard together towards the goals that we had set for ourselves and dun let our tchers be disappointed..but we must have some time of relaxing as well lehx...if not too stress also cant do well de...=)

For those people who will be going to orchard recently, must go down 2 heeren de neoprint dere lehx..lolx...me, lynn and calrin jie won e 3rd prize for the "who's e cutest" competition and we have a total of $50 voucher to take neoprints..hahax..and heard from lynn that the picture had been enlarged and paste on the glass panel dere...OMG!!so...=.=!!!


JeSsY @ 8:00 AM


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